I opened up to my little sister one day. Out of no where. We were just talking and I told her EVERYTHING.
She’s my adopted sister. I’ll give you the scope on my brothers and sisters before I say this.
I have 4 sisters and 3 brothers. Tyler is the oldest boy, who has a different dad then me. He over doses all the time. Smokes weed, gets drunk. He’s a pretty screwed up guy. I could go on forever. Then there’s me and my younger sister Kaelly. Who have the same dad. Then Jeremy who has a different dad. Then Cameryn and Bubba who have the same dad. Those are my moms kids.
My step mom has two kids. Paige and Laynee.
Paige is the oldest of the two but she’s younger then me, her dad walked out in her when she was a baby so when my dad and bitch or a step mom got married my dad adopted paige.Then there’s Laynee and her dad.
Anyways.
I told Paige EVERYTHING. I try to never tell my siblings this stuff because I feel like I’m the only person that they have to look up to. I feel like the only good person they have in there life. Everybody else is so screwed up. I’m suppose to be the big strong sister, right? But I couldn’t hide it. I had to tell her. She was telling me everything so I just had to say it when I had the chance.
I told her about my cutting and when I starve myself. I told her about how the anger builds up inside of me and the only way it’s released it by cutting myself. I told her that I can’t take the fights anymore.
I told her about my suicide spiral. I told her everything..
That was about a month ago..
&i found out that she started all of the things that I told her I did. That’s how she copes with her dad leaving her now, and that’s how she copes with stuff when people call her fat.
I feel like the worst sister.
How stupid could I be. I wish I could take her pain away. But I can’t. I feel like I’ve made her stuff a bigger problem.
&its sad cause when she needs me, I can’t be there. I’m at my moms.
Next time I’ll keep my mouth shut to for the sake of others.
Most Anons: Why is your blog so sad?
Me: Well, I play happy at school, I play happy on facebook, I play happy with my family, I need somewhere to let it all out.
Yearbook Quote of the Day: Eight high school seniors with the last name Nguyen joined forces to bring us the year’s best yearbook quote:
We know what you’re thinking, and no, we’re not related!
Well played, Nguyens.
Yearbook Quote of the Day: Eight high school seniors with the last name Nguyen joined forces to bring us the year’s best yearbook quote:
We know what you’re thinking, and no, we’re not related!
Well played, Nguyens.
If people who cut are attention seekers then why do they go out of their way to cover their scars? If those with eating disorders are attention seekers then why do they pretend to eat and hide it from those they love? If people with suicidal thoughts are attention seekers why do they keep these thoughts to themselves? If people with depression are attention seekers then why to they paint a fake smile on their face every day?
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Happy one year babeeee, love you <3
no we didnt get back together but this came up on my dashhh! :/
